my life...

this few days, ling had been working, and i am so bored.. but i understand.. i wanna be a good gf.. striving towards it.

before that, we were quarrelling almost everyday and there are times when my heart just seems to stop. Hurt by the way he could speak, the way he could act to me. To me, i would never believe that when u love someone, u will bear to treat them the way he treat me but one final word which stop all my thoughts... my heart. i told myself there wasn't a need to do anything anymore.

guys always thought that after which something happen, just don't talk about it and everything will be fine, everything may SEEMS to be fine but the wound had been inflict in the heart. At this time, what we girls can do is to just smile and feel sad deep down there.

i know Ling had tried to change and sometimes i am so scared i get unreasonable. I do feel i am not capable of taking care of him coz he doesn't listen to me.. not as much.. i mean. There are times when i wanted to feel loved and pampered by u.. realli feel so.. but whatever so.. i guess i just have to take it.. cant possibly tell u to take it or leave it.. coz i know he will leave it.

the wicked me sometimes really hope he go NS soon, and we can get better and ling will change his temper. hahas..

argh.. grumbling away.. i'm fine..

Christmas is coming, my favorite season. I'm gonna do something special for Ling. hope he will treasure it.. and hopefully we be able to spend a wonderful christmas together.

though i lost my pride, but i got someone i love...

is this stupidity or the magic of love.

when one holds up pride, they tend to lost some things.

i saw my niece today... cute, sweet, & a little dearie.

working days...

now i am back to my working days.. meaning less time for my family, darling, and my "hao jie mei". Well, currently working in Lego Education Center, friendly environment, good pay and working hrs and its jus next to my hse, definitely a good deal. I realli enjoy the working coz jus by looking at the kids, it makes me laugh.. of coz there are some where u will feel like killing them or even their parents.. haha.. had some first time experience over there with kids.. memorable.. and i am quite well liked by them too.. hihi.. happy..

i know having spend less time with ling sometimes do make him feel that i don't care for him as much.. but.. hereby ling just wanna tell u.. u still mean as much to me.. so don't worry.

i wanted this job to be an experience for me and help me in leading the road infront of me. Hopefully, it do help. My colleagues do guide me and teach me a lot.. thanks to them.. learnt some new skils in guding and handling kids.. can used them for my own kids in future.. haha.. shall guide them well..

feeling tired out easily these days and today i know why.. my blood is in its extreme low period.. 87.. haix.. low blood pressure people need more rest than others and i am getting so little rest these days.. i will learnt to manage my time well.

now feeling unwell, shall go to bed soon..

updates due to my darling request... its dia...

o people, i'm so sorry... haven been updated.. guess dia is missing me.. *shy.. nowadays have been busying with my work. Basically my PPM, CE points and FYP. Going to complete my PPM & CE soon, so happy... wahaha..

that night, went to serangoon with my parents for dinner. It has been so long since we went there, i remember when young, we use to go there and have dinner and my younger bro and i used to run ard the pet shop and a shop selling a lot of fish. In there, there is a koi pond with lots of koi in it.. we will sit there and play.. jus feel the days we had there.

yst went out with dia they all, had a wonderful time.. though sometimes things are just so different. went to a new cafe aka restaurant called changing appetites, they sell large cups of drinks that are inside unique cups.. had my fill of coz but what i order wasn't realli very nice. had a good chat with my dia.. haha.. and tok abt a lot of things.. well, girl.. all i could say is realli treasure what u have.. know what u are doing and ur limits.. don't ever repeat the mistake i had made. last night ah boy was sick, poor thing... i cried.. so silly of me.. but i jus can't imagine one day if he is realli gone.. i be so heartbroken. was so tired..

today, a rainy morning, went to school bringing an umbrella.. urghz.. was a damn unlucky day.. have anyone try taking a bus for $2. i did it today.. don't ask me why.. just feel the pinch man.. haix.. then went to long john with my cute ling for dinner and went back separately. went for an interview which boon siang had recommended. haha.. i'm so happy but if i could work more days. It be better.. and to my surprise it under crestar holdings.. ahaha.. not bad.. going for training tml and working at sat.. i'm back to working life again.. woohoo.. alright.. going for dinner now.. will try to update more often.

wednesday... wednesday... wednesday...

wake up ard noon, was having a splitting headache... for no reason.. jus remember that there was some drilling and knocking sounds of people renovating their house.. It wakes me up of course.. so noisy in the early afternoon.

Woke up and I vacuum my room, clean it a bit and bathe my dog, Ah boy is so use to my bathing now that he is such a good boy when I blow him dry with the hairdryer.. imagine a hyperactive dog like him sitting quietly there. Haha… after that I took a bath myself.. Wash my clothes.. tiring manz..

Yesterday watch Doom with ling, it brings my blood pressure up just watching the show as the monster jus jump out suddenly.. and for dunno wat reason, I jus keep shivering.. making ling so fedup and he say me.. =( but overall the show was not bad.. quite interesting.. we did some stunts in there. Haha.. its my darling and my secret.. hihi…

Nowadays with ling, I somehow take things easier don’t know why... Maybe I am used to what is happening.. but I have my limits of course.. Well, don’t know what to say.. jus feel funny.. watching so many different shows this days.. Chobits.. Paul lend me de.. haha nice anime.. and also watch the 浪漫满屋。。 very nice and funny show.. and I felt that the male lead character is so much like my Ling one.. poor me le..

I completed my CE points le.. so happy.. Lucky ling told me or I still be looking for more events to go to… having a flu now.. I think I am going to rest.. update again..

i nv pick up ur pone as my hp was in my room, like the way u always did.
then, i call u back when u msn me.
i know u are unhappy tat i didnt pick up ur call.
i try to tok to u nicely though i wasn't feeling well.
I ask again and again but u didn't wanna say anything.. and at last u told me u are feeling unwell again and wanted to go to sleep.
and i ask u then wat u wanna say jus now.. u jus ask me.. r u an idiot.. dunno how to listen is it..
my heart jus plunk..
i say no... den i ask u go and rest and take medicine etc...
then, i try to tok to u nicely and let u cool down.. and u just start to throw vulgarities at me.. hang my phone and finally u off ur pone and house phone.. quit msn, and irc...
i may be slow at some stuff but that doesn;t mean that i didn't try to know.. or i didnt make the effort to sayang u when u want me to at that specific moment..
u say what else i know except calling and talking about this and that...
maybe in ur eyes i am so useless, i'm sorry.
u hang my phone and everything leaving me here..
i got nuttin to say..
i wont let my tears flow infront of u.

it has been so long since i updated my blog.. have been busying these days studying for my UT, doing my project... and watching shows.. haha..

have been reading blogs and watching drama and what i always see is all about love.. seen many different definitions of love from different people.

my days are still about the same... evolving around my family, friends and also my darling.. but well, i work more on myself to improve on my own work.

my darling is sick.. wonder if its really dengue.. hai.. the stupid mosquito.. i rather it bit me... why bite my poor darling.. he is in such a mess now.. and bad temper...

my backs are aching so much now.. sitting here the whole day doing my work..

nothing much to say but i'm jus feeling like going for a shopping spree so much this days.. can someone get me a job???