last day at Infonet...

30th June which is the last day I will be working at Infonet. Through this 3 months, I learnt quite alot of things no matter its computer stuff or even stuff regarding paper work. Quite happy about that, coz i did not spend my time wasted.

Since ah Boy was back, he didn't eat much, neither is he active, I'm realli so worried something will happen to him. Thinking of suggesting bro to bring him to a vet. So sad to see him lidat.. haix..

Before leaving today, was quite glad about 2 things. Firstly, Adrian Kang, Infonet sales manager who didnt actually have a close relationship in terms of work or friends call just to wish me luck and praise me for my good work during this period and ask me to cal him when I need jobs and the other person is the HR manager. This is a kind of compliment to me la.. glad.. hihi...

after work, went to get my stationaries for school. Tired.. now.. shall have a good rest before school start.

2nd last day of work~

Kinda headache over school stuff.. what's with the exemption thingy. Sianz.. I need some advice but from who is another word. I shall go back and take a look.. so what if its statistics. I have to face it. Dun wanna waste my time in something I can't do.. got to learn.

not enuff sleep again.. and guys, i'm ready to go out for some fun.. thinking of going Sentosa, Kbox, and shopping and best is spend a day with my darling.. jus one whole day lazing ard.. it be so nice.

im hungry already.. finish my Nora Roberts book.. quite a nice one.. interesting conversation between the character inside.. and nice story.. Can't wait to read the Judith Mcnaught one tat is with Sis. Shall start on my stupid cupid first.

TATA~

human beings

I wonder why did I blog so much.. lonely I suppose... didn't want to speak out.. so just voice it out here..

tired out after a day of work.. loads of stuff in my mind.. looking at how one is hurting the other.. without even battling an eyelid.. what give them the power to be evil.. I wish I didn't change sometimes coz some humans won't and will never know how to appreciate..

today during work went to surf Tiffany & Co website and make a choice that my wedding band will be from there.. much more unique and nice.. the necklace that I once loved was no longer in production I think. I would never forget how it looks like.

I love the two pets that I adopt now.. the hedgehog is especially cute.. and my dog.. shall have a rest now.

first step to courage!!!

jus wanna start blogging and feel like I am typing an email like I always did my work. Almost type Hi, blah blah blah..

anyway, can't believe tat I ate the Andersen's Ice Cream that dunno who bought.. due to aunt visit. I always avoid cold food for almost one week but I just took a cup of macademia nuts and choc mint yst.. with all my courage. Not caring anything about the coming cramps after cold food.. haha.. but it was real nice.. now.. its under one of my favorite ice-cream apart from banana spilt from swensen. This is realli an act of courage. haha..

so many pple asking me out recently.. busy.. busy.. busy.. i need to get some beauty sleep, do my hair before school reopen.

every morning have been different now, no more dangling of chains, or wet nose touching my legs, nor any leaping from my dog. I keep wondering if ah boy new owner is treating him well. I wish they do and he is having a good life over there. Everytime I look at the empty space, tears just fill my eyes. I miss my dog.. so much.. no longer could I see his head pop out behind the wall when I walk into the kitchen every morning or when i got home.. some nights when I feel hungry and sit on the little stool in the kitchen munching titbits with Ah boy right beside me peeking into the drawer of titbits and sharing some of mine.. I guess this will nv happen again..

shall not carry on anymore.. feel so sad now.

jokes.. farnie or nt.. tats life ba..

seen any Singaporeans practising "Tie Tou Gong" in the bus?

I suppose many didn't coz this is the most amzing thing i saw on the bus on the way home one day... alright, this totally bald man was sitting beside me and sleeping away.. then suddenly the bus jerk, and he knock his head damn hard into the glass window.. why I know its hard coz the sound was really loud.. amazingly he nv wake up.. then he knock the back of his head to the handle of the bus sit.. again he nv wake up.. amazing right.. lol...

alright, then about me... dad went for eyes consultation with Dr Lee tat day and he soon bian ask abt Lasik for me.. he has always been more eager for me to do the Lasik than myself dunno y.. anyway I make an appt but jus now I was thinking maybe just wait for a few more mnths.. if nt i got to miss my first few lesson of school.

This is the last week of work at Digiland... gonna relax abit..

suddenly feel like i tear...

nothing to do.. after lunch wanan sleep again...

wish tat my working days will be over soon.. need some time to enjoy and to relax..

my eyes have been feeling like its swollen for 3 days... so tired.

have been thinking of cooking so much these days. Dunno why... haha definitely not thinking of early marriage..

now calling Ling but nowadays he keep didnt pick up my call.. =@

stupid.

jus a quote...

the most wasted of all days is one without laughter..

I realise I wasted most of my days.

carry on with my life with no one.

no matter how many times you say you love me.. nothing will change.

when I don't get angry it doesn't mean that I don't have a temper.

when I speak, pple dun wan to ans me or treat like I am invisible or not talking at all... my bf, my family.. sometimes even my friends.. no one know how it feels to be treated like that.. coz they can't be treated the way they treated me.. and you know it sure sux..

I feel like doing the same old thing but trying to stop myself.. don't want to add on to the ugliness..

back to nag~

Hi guys, u all miss me? I reopen my blog again.. now it looks much more simple... quite lazy to redo it actually. Darren says wanna design a blog for me.. but till now.. no news le.. *sadded.. (hope when he see this he be guilty and do one for me soon.)

alright, my life have been usual. work work and work.. but my Ling make my life more interesting with quarrels and also his nonsense. haha... =X The BBQ tat day was quite... coz the fire start only abt 1 or 2 hrs after we bring the things down... by then everybody were famished but still the fire start. When Ling came, he restart the fire and it became burning hot. First time, I think that its so good to have Ling here.

Something I am very proud of: MY POT OF HONEYDEW SAGO

its my first attempt and they manage to finish 3/4 of it. so proud of myself. wahaha.. though I wish Ling could have more coz he only had one sip due to his gastric problems. Kinda of disappointed and crybaby me just cry when he give me the cold attitude when I show him the unhappy face. Last week, the BBQ day was the only day we met and when he give me the attitude I was so damn sad. therefore, I jus cry..

Alright, got to get back to work..

i told u so.

my heart can't seems to regain what it is anymore.

I lost my determination to fight on or to hang on.

I lost the hopes I have been holding for years.

All that left behind was only me and the love I had for him.

I listen to everything, feel it.. thought of it.

All I wanted was some care and concern by someone who claim that he loved me.. but it seems so hard for him when he say he love me. I wonder why...... I sought for all kinds of excuse to console myself.. telling myself he will change.. but still.. it stays like a bad dream to me.. a sort of illness that just stay.. how much longer could I feel this and stay as unconcerned as I am. No grumblings, no tears no nothing.. only kept all in my heart...