change of perspective towards life

seeing all that is happening around me.. and the increasing burden that weigh on me...

i was on the verge of breaking down..

time constraint and the information that needed to be contain in my brain was countless...

i sat in my room.. can't stand the stress anymore but just let my tear flow..

the need of a understanding pal.. someone to console me.. and care for me..

but i guess i face the reality that i can't always depend on all this..

the next moment, i stand up on my feet again.. took a bath and bury my head in my piles of notes..

my fairytale kind of life is no longer there... but i guess facing the reality make me a hard-hearted or stronger person in all.. no longer the old me.. reality is always cruel..

for the sake of my studies..

been a long long time~

haven been blogging for some time.. dunno what I have been busying with also..
studies and my own life..
have had so much tots jus now but now I forgotten everything..
bad colleagues, heavier workload.. and a big decision made..
I'M GOING TO GET MY BRACES DONE..

anyway, I finally undertstod the meaning of just filling vacancies in an organisation due to my own real life experience.. and this actually cause me the victim a hard time working with them.
having work with a colleague who spend one hr sitting inside the classroom to chat and toking to each other about having a fling with other boys early in the morning at 9a.m. I felt extremely childish.. and zz. I really wonder how it can be what it is today.

Changing my no very soon.. and thinking my future.. what I want.. now and then..
mum going to Japan tml and I be doing the household chores... sianz..

going to revamp my room...

many things in life can be so control by personal perception.. its always how u see or understand it...
I guess I learnt to observe and come out with my own conclusion.
Life could be better and better... coz I'm what I am now.

simple girl

my birthday passed in a wink and realli thank my friends for celebrating with me and trying so hard to keep it from me when they ask pinky to buy the cake though I found it out due to Sotong dia.. haha... I realli appreciate it.

Many things in life can't be controlled and people do change.. I guess too much of waiting, yearning, and waiting makes me tired.. and all the limit that I give myself is now.. yet I don't see results.. that is why I am in the verge of breaking down.. and giving up.. I think like marc say.. no point dwelling on what is the future like.. I've try my best.. jus observe and give him some time.. I jus want a man who will treat me nice enough and well enough for me to spend the rest of my life with. Simple yet so hard to get it.

having a bad headache for the past 3 or 4 days i guess.. realli so sick of it.

going to start my exams studies very soon..

love ya...