dreams are not reality

i look at myself in the mirror and ask myself why do i dream so much...

jus wake up and get a life.. stop waiting for pple to treat u well and watever...

dun feel like saying anything anymore.

ms red

went to dye my hair this morning and got a red head back.. the on trend color..

cant realli believe I did that and i realli did..

surprisingly i like it.. a very different me.. wild... i guess..

and the steak house that aunt bought me der have excellent steak too.. delicious.. will go der again..

2 weeks period..

I have been thinking so much this 2 weeks...

thinking of the day we met, our happy and unhappy times, till today..

absence makes the heart grow fonder i guess..

though we have been together for so long.. too long i guess that things jus quiet down..

how many times have we sat down and talk and listen to each other.. nor do we smile and laugh like before..

I guess all this happens because we tot that we knew each other very well but in fact both of us are changing with our environment.. everything jus became a routine to us.. that all this important little details are left out..

i look at our pictures.. my heart stirred.. the same feelings like i had before.. i believe my feelings were true.. like before...

could we jus spend more time together.. and feel like always..

i'm glad u tot of marriage with me.. but i hope we work towards it together..

i miss u so much..

i'm sorry for neglecting u too.. Ling..

boredom is the word~

yst jus had my niece 1 year old celebration.. things didn't turn out real well though we had plenty of food and quite a lot of pple.. pple whom I din expect will turn out came..

I brought Ah boy down and celebrate with us though.. he is quite happy I can see..

funny and unhappy things happen though.. this mighty big bee or dunno beetle came and create chaos in the scene that even my mighty mummy drop her plate of beehoon and I laugh till mad..

the birthday girl was grouchy also..

my cousin ask me to drive his STI... and I was like huh dun wan la.. later STI left 2 wheels i die... lol

within 5 mins when I got home.. i fall aslp.. due to exhaustion of BBQing... I ate plenty of prawns.. and was busy bringing crabs ard.. to serve the pple...

i miss my ling so much.. wondering what he is doing now?

Are you thinking of me too?

itch itch itch.. yawnz..

lying on my bed with my laptop on my lap.. a pair of half closed eyes and my fingers typing away on the keys..

just finish setting up a database for my dad's upcoming business and going to do much more stuff tml.. so guess just got to get enough sleep before I become a panda..

realli feel like just offing my hp and my hse pone when i sleep so i wont get unexpected morning calls in the morning.. causing me nt able to go back to sleep after tat... so sad to have the sleep gone lidat.

going to take a nap now with my storybook.

hope i can finish dad's stuff asap since its been dragging for months.

fortunate or not...

someone call me an angel today... saying "god bless an angel like you"

i was thinking.. am i an angel?

i seriously dunno.. maybe i am or am i not...

i nv know i would face a problem like that... though it hurts to speak the truth but i guess we just need to be frank...

exams are going to be over soon but im feeling unhappy for dnno wat reasons.. tml is the last paper..

sometimes considering too much is so tired.. i may look strong but i am not.. though i try to be..

u force me to fend for myself.. to count on myself.. always.. but i am SERIOUSLY NOT STRONG.. THOUGH I TRY VERY HARD TO BE JUST COZ U WANT ME TO.. BUT I AM FUCKING TIRED.. i jus need someone to love and care for me.. all i ask for.. like a girl..

need to be alone for awhile.. to rest..