finally, i let my tears dropped.
couldnt bear the pain anymore. couldnt bear the sorrow I had in my heart. I try very hard not to think. I don't want my life to be like the 10 months I had before.. and I think I am old enough to take all this.
I manage not to shed a single tear. I called once and again jus for the word.. but I only see the indifference in him.. which make my heart wrench even more.
He didnt need me... he say he would have come after me if I leave. Why would I believe and get myself hurt?
I wanted to drown my sorrows for a man who didnt love me. I jus let my heart died like that...
Years before, I lay in his arms feeling like the most fortunate woman alive. Having someone who care and love me, who would do little things like asking the cab uncle to off the air-condition just coz of a sneeze. I vow to stay by his side no matter how hard life is going to be. With all my heart. Things jus changed, or maybe we just not meant to be together.
I don't know what is your kind of love or maybe it wasn't meant to be mine.
I try not to cry, but I felt so suffocated.
waited for so long so long...
everyone jus leave me alone. Please.
