DOWN to earth~

my down to earth means i'm feeling so damn down nowadays...

having starting the first day of school with tat golden monkey staring at me.. so sick

den today was so unlucky also... dun wanna mention..

i shall not let this low class ah lians affect me..

i cant find you and its killing me anough...

my ling~

i miss ling~

Judith Gould

Judith Gould, a new book that I've just read... quite an amazing book.. the twist of the story so unpredictable and so amazing...

i felt like my life just stop.. for some reasons.. i feel so sad and down.. like i always..

someone who have been with me for so many years and now everything felt different..

i need some peace.. some peace that could cool myself..

its true that i have been venting my hatred on him... the hatred i had in me with his ways of treating me.. i hate what i'm doing.. but i just can't stop myself.. hate him for not appreciating.. hate him for not treasuring until now..

i ask myself.. if i wanted to give him another chance but i have got no answer to my own question.. wondering if this guy would be the one who i will marry and live happily ever after.. my mind go blank.. I very much wanted to know the answer..

so confused and lost... so tired... i needed someone who i can rely on... but always when i look around, i'm alone.. and i tell myself.. i need to be strong.. for myself.. because u are always not there..